ma-tri-arch The mother and ruler of a family or of her descendants; a ruler by maternal right.
To those people here in the forum who've been reading my posts since last year have often encountered my rants about my mother...
I woke up this morning and asked myself "Mom, when can we finally understand each other?"
I would hear my friends talk about their own mothers, on how hip and how loving and understanding their mom's are... etc. etc. etc. I sit there with them while raving about their mothers feeling so out of place because I couldn't relate. I've never felt so envious in my life.
For years, I have worked hard on leaving that matriarchal domain... so I ran away and I've succeeded... or so I thought.
My mum's tyrannical ways still transcends even though I am oceans away. I can't seem to escape the power that my mother has over me... maybe because eventhough I hate her so much I still want her approval.. somehow. That's when I realized that inspite of the shortcomings we through at each other I still love her.
This is my only hope that someday my mum, for once, will finally believe in me.
How's your relationship with your mum?
[ June 18, 2003: Message edited by: SoPHist ]