i am currently in a relationship of almost a year. we really blend in together and i enjoyed every moment i have with her. never a dull moment. in fact, we hardly argue. we really are in love.

just two months ago, she got hired in a call center in libis. as expected, we hardly see each other because of her irregular schedules. i know that because of this, i have to be understanding as i can be. we only text each other if not phone calls. in a week, i only get to see her three times. and when we do go out, she has to be back home early because she has an early shift the following morning. i miss her very much. it's like i'm loosing her already.

two weeks ago, i bumped into my ex in cravings. i was surprised in seeing her and how beautiful she really looks that afternoon. we talked for awhile and exchanged numbers with her. since then, we've been texting each other, just HI's and HELLO's. i told my gf that i bumped into an old friend and told her that she was my classmate in HS.

last week, i did the unthinkable (according to my friends). i asked my ex for dinner and movie because we're friends after all. and so we did went out and we both had so much fun.

when i drove her home, i walked her to their gate and said goodnight. she hugged me in return then then quickly left and waved goodbye.

i couldn't sleep that night. i was thinking of her all night. i missed her definitely. the question is do i miss her as a friend or as a girlfriend? was breaking up with her a big mistake from the very start?

ikaw? nanghihinayang ka ba sa ex mo?



[ September 01, 2003: Message edited by: drawn2u ]

No, nde nmn. hindi dahil hindi ko sha minahal or hindi ako naging masaya nung kami pa. Actually, ung last bf ko, sa kanya ko mas na feel na im really special and ung love talaga, as in. pero kailangan na rin na i-end ung relationship namin kc pareho na kaming nahihirapan(naisip ko lng na baka nahihirapan na rin sha), he's in the states tus ako nandito sa Pilipinas hinihintay sha kung kailan sha babalik ng walang kasiguraduhan kung babalik pa ba sha, hindi nya rin masabi skin kung kailan, and dahil doon na nya i-pursue ung studies nya. kaya un.. pero ngaun were in good terms, i mean were really good friends, as in.
So, wala nmn kailangan panghinayangan, im happy kc kahit minsan sa buhay ko ay nakilala ko sha at minahal ko sha.. hindi na maaalis un..

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Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all...

baka maasar ka sa kin, medyo marami ito, at hindi ko sasaguting ang tanong mo. sa halip, magbabato ako ng tanong sayo.

i have a bf and we'll be having our 1 year anniv this october.

i have this ex, whom i cried over for months after our nine-month relationship towards the end of high school. (sophist, among others, became my atenista.net friend when i was so down, btw. ) after months of ignoring me, evading me even, we suddenly came to good terms during the sem break (meaning,nine months after the breakup--my current bf and i were new as a couple then). he went to the house, we talked, i poured out all my feelings and questions and he told me things, too. i thought this was already the closure i've been waiting for. he aready said that it was our destiny NOT to be together. he kissed me then.

and yup, my bf knows all about this. closure naman e.

but then, after that, we would always text and he would always call me when i go home for the weekend. pumupunta pa minsan sa bahay. kasi kabarkada daw niya yung mga kapitbahay ko. kuno. why didnt i know about that nung kami pa, diba? hmmm..

anyway, just two weeks ago, nagpunta uli siya sa bahay, and at last, we comfortably talked about the past habang nagi-ikot sa subd. "nung Prom, habang sinasayaw mo ko, anong iniisip mo?" "wala. naisip ko lang sandali, pano kung tayo uli." mga ganung babaw stuff. pero, we knew there was nothing na talaga.

he bcame the malambing guy that he was before we broke up. so i let down my FORMALITY guard and became friendly na rin. when he walked me home that night niloloko ko pa siya, "haha. wala ka pang gf, more than a year na tayong break? yihee... bakit kaya?" tapos smile lang siya. when i said bye, i hugged him tapos umalis na ko.

i love my bf. he knows everything thats going on and he trusts me naman. i know i love my ex rin, pero as a special person. im not in love with him anymore. im just wondering if you and my ex are in the same situation..

no, not closely.

the thing is, i don't go and see my ex because i'm in a relationship myself. it's like cheating on my current gf.

i'm just torn and confused because i don't know if i'm in love with my ex again or if i just missed her badly. i even have to question myself. was i stupid enough to set her free?

in fainess to my current gf, i do love her so much. she just doesn't have a clue that i'm sort of feeling this way again to my ex (whatever it is i'm feeling).

my ex and i text once in awhile but we never went out again after that night (August 22). all i know is that she's in a relationship as well but she says that its bound to be doomed soon. i'm not keeping fingers crossed though.

i've never been in this situation before. everything is so new to me. help!

shucks! she just texted me asking me if i wanted to go out tonight...

and it just occurred to me that my gf made plans for us tonight...

ano ba ito?!?!?!?!

ang gulo na ng isip ko!!!

JUST TELL UR EX NA UR GOING OUT WITH YOUR GF TONIGHT...I MEAN...AFTER ALL...SIGURO TAMA LNG NMN NA UNAHIN MO UNG GF MO KESA SA EX MO DIBA..

Ang pinanghihinayangan ko?

Pinatulan ko siya. Yun.

of course, i did went out with my gf. andon lang yung feeling na bakit yung araw pa na yon tumawag yung ex ko.

the way i see it, you love your present girl but you miss the way your ex treated you. you miss spending more time with a girl. i dont know. basta follow what you think is right and at the same time what your heart desires. your heart's desire ha, not your body's. iba kasi ang magiging result nun.
just my good for nothing opinion.

hey, thanks for the advice. but you know what, bihira na kami nagkikita ng ex. sometimes, i don't reply to her texts. inamin ko na sa gf ko na lumalabas kami. although nagalit, we're still together.

and you're right, i should follow what my heart's desire.

thanks.

ako? nanghihinayang>

oo at hindi..

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details to follow na lang. 1pm na kasi hehehe back to work..

buhayin ang thread na ito!!

me? sort of, wala na yata ako chance kay.....

kay?

les?

ako naman ang rineto. salamat ha. idol. hanep.

ang sarap naman ng kuwento mo drawn2u. ako kasi malungkot, wala ng contact sa X. hindi ko na nga alam kung nasaan na siya. hope she's fine.

para sa akin, hindi naman talaga panghihinayang iyon. ibig sabihin lang makabuluhan ang naging pagsasama ninyo. walang kahit na anong sakitan.

^nanghihinayang sa X ko? well my times na oo my times na hindi rin.. hind ko maintindihan.. pag nanghinayang ka ba it shows na my regrets ka sa nangyari? ung my question na "SANA.." sana hindi ko na lang xa iniwan.. Sana nag take na lang ako ng risk. sana sana sana.. un naman ang palaging regrets diba?

^case to case basis..

hay.. makikiextra.. wala akong ex...haha:)) *bow

=kung mas lamang ang masasaya/magagandang pangyayari sa inyo ng EX mo, nakakahinayang talaga kung iisipin..

^ maari mo naman kasi baguhin at gawin mas makabuluhan sa bago. natuto ka na dun sa X.

yupyup.. matuto sa past.. pero minsan.. di na tayo natuto? right? we always tend to do this again and again... bakit? simply because nagmamahal tayo. - ouch!

crap.
pang hihinayang?
Hmmm. ng
mawala kaagad sakin
1st GF ko.
sad to say. ah.
because of
Leukemia.

shocks! tragic un knight. kwento mo naman. kung pwede. kung hindi . ok lang po.

^ huh? ah.
sure. PM ko na lang
sayo sa friendster.
wait mo na lang.

ok.(thanks)